F - mid 20s - 5' 5"
2 years ago I weighed 150 pounds. I felt upset about my weight then.
Fast forward to March 2018 - diagnosed Rheumatoid Arthritis. Put on Prednisone.
Weight gain didn't happen at first - in fact I lost 21 pounds. (It was extremely difficult and I felt like I was starving out of my mind.)
Note that when I began the weight loss, I was at 194 pounds.
Lots of stressful life events have occurred since.
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3 months ago hospitalized for adrenal crisis and almost died. It was caused by severe Gastroenteritis.
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Later hospitalized for atypical chest pain
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Another family had to take care of my toddler during my recovery for a couple months, broke my heart and I cried every night....and binge ate.
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After I recovered, I developed Pertussis aka whooping cough because of very low immune system caused by my meds. (I AM vaccinated) - -Lasting so far 3.5 weeks - still sick somewhat even with treatment
-Coughed so hard I fractured my rib
-Rheumatoid Arthritis flare-up
- And so PUT ON 40MG OF PREDNISONE. (Thankfully now back to 20mg) That's when I really started packing on the weight. Blew up to 248 pounds.
-And just a couple days ago got a call from my doctor to stop one of my Rheumatoid Arthritis treatments immediately because I had extremely bad lab results - and they want to prevent renal failure (!!!) and I have to go to another appointment very soon.
I'm coping by binging. I'm in pain. Doctors said no Tylenol and no ibuprofen. (Various serious medical reasons)
I need to lose this weight. My Rheumy is concerned. I made a list and am buying (mostly) healthy food next week.
I never thought I would weigh this much in my life. It is depressing me immensely and I ruminate about it every day.
I feel so ugly, and embarrassed about my body in front of my SO. I don't even look like me anymore. I'm a fat blob who semi-resembles the past me.
248 fucking pounds.
I honestly feel hopeless.
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