I've been at this for almost a year. I shared a progress photo 6 months in that blew up on my social media, and since then people like talking about it with me. Once in a while I'll post something about being at the gym, or a pic of a really great healthy, low calorie entree at a restaurant (hail CICO) because they're so damn hard to find sometimes. People tell me that the content is inspirational, and I find other peoples' health related content really inspirational since it's become a preoccupation of mine.
Something changed this last month or so. My weight loss has impacted every part of my life, and in fact it's lead me to have to confront things about my life and why I really don't feel happy. I can't talk about my weight without instantly being overcome with emotion, my head filling with my "issues". I just got a position that includes a health program with access to therapy, which I'm going to take advantage of.
I love that people feel inspired to make positive changes when they talk to me or read my several posts about my weight loss. However it brings up deeply personal feelings for me lately. I feel guilty, because I'd love to help people if I can. Especially people who feel like weight loss is hopeless. I feel like I owe that to people, though I also feel like that's a really patronizing perspective.
Is it okay if I don't want to talk about it anymore? I can't stop people from asking about it when they see me slimmer, but I don't think I want to delve into things anymore. I'm also so sick and tired of people from dating apps telling me I look so much better now, when they never even knew me before. I'm still very much a broken person.
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