Today was my first physical in over a year (I kept missing the appointments due to forgetting) and it went as any normal physical for me. We talked about meds, my mental health state (I have BP2), how school is going, and what I dread every time, my weight. I've been overweight my whole life, pretty much morbidly obese the entire time. I'm 23, 5'10" Male and I was weighed in today at 308 (which is actually less than when I really started to monitor and make a change in my weight a week ago). I didn't see my PCP. I saw a nurse practitioner there that I usually see instead of my doctor because he's booked months out. In all honesty, I prefer her and enjoy the chats we have. Regardless, she said that my health was fine, except for my weight. I don't have diabetes or high blood pressure or cholesterol issues, but I am at risk. We talked extensively on what options I could have. This isn't the first time I've tried to lose weight, but every time has been unsuccessful, clearly. At first she asked if I wanted to try a medication that suppressed appetite (I don't know the name of what she might have prescribed but she did say it was clinically tested) and to refer me to a nutritionist. I wasn't opposed, but she saw my insurance is really good and instead referred me to the weight loss center that they have. I was excited, and nervous and I'm not really sure how to feel.
I have to wait for the weight loss center to call me back to get the ball rolling, so I don't know much about what it is other than that I'll work with a team who will have me come in weekly, help with meal plans, weigh me every visit, and probably put me on an appetite suppressant, also. I don't really know how I feel at the moment about the whole thing. Like, I'm very happy that I'm going to be making this change in my life and have accountability that should help me, but I feel a little disappointed in myself for not being able to do it on my own. My mom had a sleeve surgery on her stomach 3 or 4 years ago on Sunday (my birthday actually). She lost over 100lbs, but her eating habits never really changed so she's gained some weight back. She's still significantly better off than before. I feel like I failed myself not being able to do this all on my own. I really wanted to lose the weight on my own.
My goal weight is 170. I have reasons for wanting to be at that weight specifically that I don't want to air out at the moment. I know I'll have excess skin. Going down 140lbs is going to cause that. I'm not sure if I'll be able to hit that goal weight with excess skin. If I end up even being 180-190 with excess skin, I'm happy. When I can afford it, I'd get the skin removed.
Now, this is really where the journey begins officially. I told my best friend about it. He's a power lifter and very into his sport so he believes he can get me to lose weight if I followed what he said, and that's 100% true. However, after talking about it he realized that something like this is probably what I need at this point in time. There wasn't really judgement from him like I kind of expected, so that's a win. I haven't told my girlfriend yet about it because of busy schedules, but I know she'll be supportive.
I've written all of this out kinda to vent and to look to others with experiences using weight loss centers they've been referred to. I haven't heard from many who've used them so I'm a little curious what to expect. If you've been through them, I'd love to hear your experience to know what you're getting into!
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