Quick stats: 29F, CW: 177lbs SW: 240lbs GW: 160lbs
Sorry for the backstory but it's to demonstrate my emotional load. In early February my husband of 3.5 years asked for a divorce. He left a few days later and I've been on my own since. A month and a half ago he decides he doesn't want the divorce anymore. The real reason is that he doesn't want me to have half the house when we sell. I'm currently living in it. I've been grappling with him, trying to get him to finish the divorce process (he filed). I want to be free to move on.
I started losing weight in July of 2017. I started at 240lbs. I am now somewhere around 175lbs. My goal is 160lbs. The past few months I was either maintaining weight (not trying to) or I've lost a little. The past couple weeks have been bad, however. I haven't gained but I'm hovering between 174-178lbs. I have trouble not excusing relaxing my diet (1200-1300 calories per day to lose 2lbs a week). Weekends are hardest. On one hand, I'm eating better because he's not around. My diet is mostly vegetables and meat. But I do look forward to dessert and I have a problem with cereal, peanut butter, and chocolate. It seems so hard to lose that last 15ish lbs.
It's hard to pin down what exactly I'm anxious about. For sure I am reluctant to hire a lawyer to do something about the divorce. In our state, there's a cooling off period between the final papers that we sent out to the judge and that's passed. I had thought that by now I'd be getting a letter finalizing the divorce about now but instead I'm still married. The whole process of litigation is scary, especially because it will complicate and make our mostly polite relationship difficult. There is also an issue of cost. I don't make as much as I'd like and finding a new, better paying job is also always on my mind.
I think what I'm asking is: how do I navigate these huge life stresses and make sure I don't fall off the wagon? I stopped working out because I couldn't justify the high cost of our gym (it's a very nice one). Instead, I'm doing horseback riding and am thinking of doing martial arts instead. But I feel so flabby and weak now. And unduly stressed when I know I shouldn't be so worried about things. I feel like I'm losing my grip on the reason I started to get healthier in the first place.
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