Hey everyone.
I've struggled with disordered eating from the age of 15. I was always heavier so I started doing crash and yo-yo dieting to lose the weight and slowly got into a restrict/ binge cycle. This has lasted for years and years. I started becoming more obsessive being on pro ED sites. I went through a period two years ago where I successfully managed to lose a good amount of way with a surpisingly healthy mindset for the first few months. Then my weight loss started plateauing and I think that's what triggered me and I kept lowering my calorie intake to see the number drop. At the end of the fifth month, I decided to have a cheat day which turned into a cheat weak and before I knew it, I was binging again and started to gain weight. I'm 21 now and I have gained double the weight I had lost. I'm obese according to my BMI.
Mentally and emotionally, I feel exhausted. I feel stuck in my body and my mental health is worsening. But I'm scared because of even doing anything in case of getting into a binge/ restrict cycle. I know that food holds comforts for me but councilling is not feasible for me right now.
All I know is that I can't stay where I am right now. Although I'm not binging or restricting anymore, I'm overeating. I eat whatever and however much I want without limits but don't feel the need to binge like I use to.
I am gaining weight little by little by the month and it scares me. Please help. Any tips and advice will do. Thank you.
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