I thought that having reached my goal weight that all my work was now done, turns out this isnt true.
Recently friends of mine shared a heap of old photos from 4-5 years ago on our group chat. I felt such shame looking at myself in those photos, knowing that when those photos were taken I thought I looked good.
I know that when those photos were taken I was depressed. I know that when those photos were taken I was exercising (but not sufficiently for what I was stress eating). I know that I was under a lot of pressure in a work environment that was bitchy, back stabbing and gossipy. I know I wasn't getting enough sleep (my boss said I should be able to survive on 4hrs a night). I know I was stress eating due to the above work environment.
Even looking back knowing that I was at the convergence of all these things, I find it hard to be kind to myself and reconcile who I was and how Iooked, with how I look now.
How can I trust my judgement that I now look good, if four years ago I also thought I looked good. If I think about it too much I begin to mistrust many aspects of my life between then and now.
I thought I was doing well having reached my goal weight, but I feel like I've been slapped in the face seeing those photos. I didn't realise how much work I had to do in terms of mentally coming to terms with my weight loss.
Has anyone else felt similar? How have you worked through your feelings towards your old self and your new self?
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