Hello friends,
Decided to set up a little thread so I could track my journey. A bit of history about me if anyone is interested:
I’ve been chubby all my life, my lowest weight as an adult was around 68kg, I had dropped from 96kg to 68kg in about 3 months by counting strings of spaghetti for lunch, under eating daily, running 10k a day and basically overworking myself. This was obviously not sustainable in any way. The running stopped as I gained an injury and I hit a very low patch in life, hardly leaving my home for the best part of 18 months, binge eating everyday and putting on all of the weight I’d lost back as well as an extra 8kg.
Since then (10 years ago) and with UK lockdown number 3(!) I’ve gradually continued to put on weight and at my heaviest reached 130kg. I was in a lot of denial and clearly have a lot of issues with food and bingeing that I think will take a significant amount of time to unpack in full.
I’ve thrown money at my weight loss cause countless times, this new PT at my new gym, the online PT that I see working for everyone else, an outdoor PT, a special PT gym etc. The pattern is always the same, I start off enjoying the idea of it but being told what to do and disagreeing with the expert always causes me to check out 100%. I’ve finally realised it has to be me myself and I calling all of the shots on this journey for me to take full accountability for the results.
The things that happened which made me want to change:
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Being dangerously unfit - I recall going for a walk with my bf and my heart rate was over 165 going up a very very small incline, it scared both of us and has very much pushed me into action
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The fear of being a fat bride, we’ve spoken about getting married LATE 2021 or very early 2022. Considering I’m no where near the weight I’d like to get when I get married, I am super scared! I just want to feel like a princess when I go dress shopping which I know won’t happen being so far from my goal
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Babies babies babies - fertility has been on my mind a lot recently as we’d like to start trying as soon as we get married. I have issues with irregular periods and have done my whole life. As I was chubby this was always branded as PCOS but the gynae I’m dealing with at the moment has ruled this out after having bloods and scans. She’s told me to lose weight and go back in 6 months and we can figure out a POA
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My body just hurt - knee problems that I’ve never experienced before, plantar fasciitis coming back. All of these things plus knowing being overweight gives you a higher mortality rate of dying from COVID is frightening as F
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Overweight bias from docs - now this one really scares me in life. The general advice from the docs each time I go and re whatever problem I have is just to lose weight. While I’m happy to be told the truth there is a general fear that any real issues may not be explored because of being overweight (e.g. PCOS) and I feel like I deserve better
I’ll write up my action plan in the next post!
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