Hey guys, I just wanted to share a thought I just had with you all:
As someone who has been overweight and big all her life, I have noticed some things that have started to make me feel... uneasy. As I get smaller, my skeleton slowly floats to the surface. I catch myself looking at my arms and hands, and I have trouble recognizing them as my own. I can see the muscles move under my skin in finer detail, without having to flex. I’m starting to see how small my body actually is. I was just sitting down and leaning forward with my forearms resting on my thighs and I was shocked to feel a “hard bump” in my thighs. I felt around them and it dawned on me that those were my quads, and I could FEEL them. I have never felt anything except a flat surface whenever I leaned my arms on them. And of course, my forearms are smaller too, so I can’t just lean forward anymore, I have to put them in the right spot, or they’ll fall off. This blows my mind, because this body doesn’t feel like mine. I still have that “big girl” mentality and I’m still insecure, but I keep realizing that I don’t have to be anymore. I’m still a ways away, but I’m thinking about it more negatively than positively. If I can change my thought process on this, and stop thinking “I’m still fat” and instead, think “wow, I’ve come a long way! And I’m almost there, can’t give up now!” then this disconnect I’m feeling will slowly fade away as I get used to my new body. And I’ll get my second wind and see this through to the end.
This hurdle has stopped me before and caused me to gain all the weight back and then some. But this time is different. I’m focusing more on my mental game this time around, and I knew I’d eventually make my way back to this particular hurdle. But this time, I’m ready for it. And I learned from my past failures, which is why I know what I need to do to get passed it this time. Failure isn’t always a bad thing, getting discouraged and frustrated IS. Had I paid more attention to my mental state on my last weight loss journey, I never would’ve failed in the first place and I would be where I want to be, today. I refuse to make the same mistake twice.
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