Tuesday, May 11, 2021

I'm tired of giving up/ being fat

Hey r/loseit. I'm (30 M) a long-time lurker and I don't post much. I don't know if I have much point to posting here, but I think I just need some community support to help me make a change.

i've been battling with my weight my entire life and I don't have a great body image of myself. At my heaviest in 2017 I was 355 lbs and was then diagnosed with Type II diabetes. I cut out sugary soda which was really the only change I made and dropped down to 320, which is where I stayed ever since more or less. In 2019, my wife and I separated with the divorce being finalized earlier this year (thank you Covid for slowing that down). During that time, I ate out a lot because my wife used to cook healthy meals. As a result, I've been in a plateau for the last 2 years, staying at 320.

Here are the things I've tried. I did Weight Watchers twice, both times not lasting more than a couple weeks. I tried Intermittent Fasting and joined the subreddit here, but I found that the first meal out of a fast I would just eat two meals because I was so hungry. One weekend of not being on IF caused me to gain back 4 weeks of weight loss. It really knocked me down emotionally. Counting calories became too much because I'm terrible with keeping track and measuring and I feel like I'm always off so I lose faith.

I am currently engaged to a wonderful woman and I'm getting married in July of this year. I realize every day that I'm getting older and I feel like I'm done giving up on different diets. I have a healthy relationship now, a great job with decent money, and now it's time to fix my health. Both my ex wife and my fiance have had weight loss surgery and I really want to do this myself without having to do surgery. I guess I need some sort of tool or motivation, something to change my relationship with food.

I know I sound like I'm whining, but I think I'm reaching out to the community. I keep beating myself up for my failures (not just my weight) and I feel like I can't succeed here. Anyways, thanks for listening. It helped just to write it all out.

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