This is a bit odd because I didn’t fit into a new pant size or get a compliment. Instead, today, I was brutally honest with myself.
I am currently in week one of my weight loss journey and following the quick start guide. I set MFP to maintain my weight and I have been being sure to log every bite.
I am currently in the process of healing from an eating disorder. I have a strong support system and see a therapist, but I still have binges. Typically, when I mindlessly binge, I crawl into bed and cry and go to sleep. However, today, I binged, and I tracked every. Single. Bite. Sure, since it was a binge, the numbers may not be accurate, but as horrifying as it is to see an estimate of how much I consumed in one binge, I felt proud of myself for owning up to it. I’ve stopped and restarted weight loss so many times over the past 8 years, but never before did I track every bite I ate in a binge as well as what I ate in a day.
I am coming to realize that the scariest part of weight loss is facing yourself. Your true, unfiltered, raw self and what you do when you think you don’t. The hardest part of weight loss - at least for me - is honesty.
I think this weight loss attempt will be different because I have decided to stop lying to myself and tackle my issues head on. I am now going to drink plenty of water, do some yoga, and start tomorrow fresh.
Maybe I can do this. :)
Edit : I’m not sure if this will help others in the future, I didn’t realize there was a stand alone NSV thread, I’m sorry in advance.
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