Scared of new relationship with food

Hi all, I've been a lurker on this subreddit for a while now. I am morbidly obese at 317 pounds. If it helps, I am female and 5'11. Currently on a calorie deficit to lose 1.5 lbs per week, and should be under 300 by the middle of the year. However, I'm losing it quicker than expected because of my new relationship with food.

I started counting calories at the beginning of last month. Since February I have lost 12 pounds from counting calories. It's changing me in a way that makes me feel empty (emotionally) and afraid. I used to look forward to dessert every night. But now, my stomach hurts if I overeat even just a little bit. I can no longer eat/drink to the point where I feel full/satisfied. Otherwise, I get super uncomfortable and anxious, since feeling full now makes me feel sick. I find myself being repulsed by a lot of foods that used to make me happy, like chocolate, green tea, or sushi. I just no longer like how they make me feel.

At first I thought that this new relationship with food was a great thing. But now, I am skipping meals randomly, just to avoid the feeling of fullness. But whether I am feeling hungry, or full, it all just gives me an incomplete, empty feeling. It makes me feel, dare I say, depressed. Food used to bring me joy and now, it all kind of disgusts me, even water, tea, and coffee, which I used to love. I can't drink matcha tea because I now have a heightened sensitivity to caffeine. I can't drink herbal tea because it now gives me digestive issues. I now feel repulsed by most foods because since I started restricting calories, my body has become more sensitive to food. The only time I am actually hungry is after I do strenuous work (long distance walking, exercise, moving boxes, chores, etc.). I guess I used to really look forward to eating food. But now, it just gives me a really Hollow feeling, where I end up regretting taking a single bite of anything.

I guess this post is more of a vent, but I was wondering if anyone has ever felt a similar way. I'm really not sure how to navigate my new emotions surrounding food. I started this weight loss journey because I was worried about my health. But now, this new problem has arisen that makes me worry about both my mental and physical health. Any advice would be stellar. Thanks for reading.

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