Hello, I'm not gonna give my full stats but for reference I've lost 19kg (about ~40lbs) so far and I started seeing the change in and on my body. I always thought the only problem that stayed in the way between me and that so-called self esteem, self love whatever, was that I was fat. Now I lost weight it seems like I'm starting to see all the flaws on my body other than the fat part. Years ago I gained so much weight, I think I gained roughly 30kg (~66lbs) in just matter of months and since then I've had stretch marks on my tummy and thighs, and now I'm starting to see them clearly. Also due to the fact that I'm losing weight very unevenly between different body parts, for example my waist got thinner but my thighs basically stayed the same, my body shape looks weird.
I'm not discouraged and I will keep going until I reach my goal weight since I'm doing it for the sake of my health, but the ideal bubble of this massive glow up after the weight loss kind of just bursted right in front of my eyes and I'm... ah, a little disappointed. Saying I didn't at all expect to see a more beautiful version of myself, the one I can be proud of, after so much effort put in losing weight would be a total lie.
But that's okay. I think I will recover from this, I still have a long way to go and I'm not going to stop just because at the moment I still can't look into the mirror and say I'm okay with what I see. Just needed to vent a little and give you guys some heads up about how it is on the other side - if I might say so, I hope, because I've lost probably the amount many of you here set out to lose. Also, I always think I'm doing this whole weight loss thing because I love my body. I didn't give up on it, I'm working on it, and even if it doesn't turn out to be how I want it to be, I will never give up on it.
One day I will be able to think I'm beautiful. I hope you too will learn to love yourself no matter what.
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