Hi, everyone. Excuse me for the poor formatting as I am on mobile.
I have been obese ever since I was 13-14 years old. Butt of all jokes in school, you know the deal. Back then I had some hormonal issues, and by the time it was fixed, I had already developed severe gynaecomastia.
I know, you guys can relate to this. You are 16-17 years old, more than 100 kilograms, with a pair of man boobs. Your self-esteem is so low that even groping doesn't bother you. You don't even bother trying to fix yourself up because ehh whatever, things look bleak and there's no point to it. You get no attention from the opposite sex, despite being good in other areas apart from physical looks, people don't want to be your friend, rather just have you in their group as a source of jokes and easy body-shaming laughing material.
I was like this. However, this changed. In 2018, I met a girl online, and we became friends and ultimately lovers. She made me feel confident enough and motivated me to start working out, and fix myself, not because I'd look better, but because I would be healthier. Diabetes runs in my family.
Due to some exams and all, I was stress eating during that time. However, once I finished my exam, NEET (for the non-Indians, it's an exam you need to score good in, to get admission into MBBS/BDS courses), I promised myself to give it the best to my abilities. Deep inside, I knew I am not a loser.
In May 2019, I started my journey, weighing 103.5 Kilograms. I am 176cm.
I followed the simple concept of CICO. I was too heavy and out of shape to exercise for longer periods of time, hence started slow. 1500 kcals for the day, whether it's huge servings of low calorie food, or a couple of slices of pizza. It's very important than you don't mentally starve yourself. Eat what you like, but in moderation. I used to cheat a day or two, here and there, however, tried my best to balance it and not let it go over 2300-2400 calories.
The idea is simple.
What's the best thing I could do? Lose weight. What's the second best thing I could do? Maintain whatever I have lost!
Anyhow, by June, I was 95 Kilograms, and already felt a lot greater. I joined a great college, and the hostel food sucked, so I started skipping meals. Not the healthiest choice. However, I started eating outside, and hence my weight stopped decreasing. I was struck at 92-93 Kilograms till November 2019. Started feeling hopeless.
I did something I shouldn't have. Trigger Warning.
For a 4-5 days straight, I didn't eat much, only water and coffee, and maybe 500 calories max. I dropped like 2-3 Kilograms. And it felt bad, I felt weak and lightheaded the whole day. Figured it isn't working, gave it up. I was struck now at 90 Kilograms.
In December 2019, I was 88-90 Kgs, and it sucked. I wasn't able to keep up with the reduced calorie demand thanks to exams and stress eating. Stopped trying to shed weight, and switched to maintenance instead. However, I started playing basketball, and got a new bicycle in Jan 2020, and thanks to the increased physical demands, lost another 4 kgs, and became 86.
This is the physical side of it. The change in the weighing scale. However by looks, I got a thinner face, and the shirts became looser. My moobs sunk a bit, although they were still prominent. People noticed the weight loss, and there were compliments which felt good. Honestly, it felt amazing, and it was motivating. Through everything, my girlfriend stuck with me, and kept cheering me. I had thoughts about how fat I still am, and how I am ugly. Still what can you do, it's not like I could control them.
Back to the timeline, it's March 2020, the pandemic knocks on the door, I return back home. Ate like a pig, after all home cooked meals by my mother is the tastiest thing in the entire world, atleast to me. I was at 88 Kilograms. However, there was no pressure of exams or classes, and I picked up momentum to lose weight. I ate everything, but controlled the portions. Started running.
In June I was 86 Kgs, by August I was 80. And since then, I have been maintaining 80-81 Kgs. My goal weight is 72 Kgs, and I am still 8 Kg behind. However, now I can enjoy home food, and eat many things without worrying much. I went from a 38 inch waist to a 34. A 46 shized shirt to 42. My moobs are there, and I'd require surgery for it, maybe one day I'd be able to convey my parents regarding a surgery. My jawline is now prominent.
My exercises stopped after June though, and although it's not ideal, I plan on restarting cycling and sports once I am back on campus.
The remaining 8 Kgs doesn't really bother me. I have reduced 23 Kgs, the 8 Kg isn't going to be that difficult. I feel pretty confident in my own skin, which is the biggest plus point of my entire journey. I can now look into the mirror and think, 'Maybe I look good'. I have a new found interest, in maintaining a good wardrobe, and dress good. My journey inspired my girlfriend, and she lost 8Kgs as well.
My message to everyone here would be, weight loss isn't consistent. You can't lose 1lb a week. Take it at your own pace. Many people can lose 23 Kgs in 6-8 months, however it took like 14-15 months for me. Everyone is different. And most of all, enjoy the process. Cheat once in a while, you deserve it. You have to lose weight, not give up on the delicacies of life.
I am sorry if formatting is stupid or there are typos. I have tried to minimize them. English isn't my 1st language. Thank you everyone. I have been a lurker for long, and everyone was so inspiring. I hope this post inspires someone who's on the same journey as me. Feel free to message me, if you want to rant or have any questions. Thank you all.
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