I'm 29 now and I've been steadily gaining weight since college, when I first reached an obese BMI. Fast forward to the last year, I gained 40 lbs over quarantine (specifically between March and November) partially due to going on anti-depressants, largely because of an extreme period of binge eating while I was unemployed. I hit 268 by the end of November, I'm 5'5 in which makes me morbidly obese.
I've been in complete denial about my weigh until I went to the doctor in October and she wanted to test me for pre-diabetes. I don't have pre-diabetes, and my blood pressure is fine right now. I knew I was gaining weight, but I've never truly thought about how it would impact my health.
My second wakeup call was when this article came out saying "having obesity already increases one’s likelihood of hospitalization for covid-19 by 113 percent and chances of dying of the illness by 48 percent."
I'm terrified of getting some sort of obesity-related complication, it's an almost overwhelming feeling of panic. I've lost 13 lbs so far and I'm losing at a rate of about 1.3 lbs a week, which I know is normal/healthy. My sense of panic comes from how long it's going to take me to no longer be obese. It's going to take over a year for me to lose that much weight, if I'm losing at my current pace, which is a BIG if. I've never lost more than 15 lbs, and I've always gained back in previous weight loss efforts. What if I can't do it?
I don't think this is a healthy mindset for losing weight, but how do I quiet the doubts and anxiety?
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