Since about September I’ve been really struggling to wake up and do things in the morning. I occasionally have good days/a week of waking up when I want to and getting out of bed to do the things I want to do (read, gym, meditate, write, etc). I was at a job I didn’t really like that had long hours so I thought it was that. Restaurant manager so shifts were 10am-9pm or 1pm-11:30pm. I hated this and I thought my hate toward the shifts and the job as a whole made me not want to get out of bed in the morning. I got a new job around January that is entry level but it’s in the field that I want to be in. I was lucky enough to get put in a location that’s somewhat slow so I can learn and develop and get promoted. Exciting right? Not for me somehow. I still can’t get out of bed to get there
I watch a lot of Jocko Willink and David Goggin’s, read the books, set my alarm for 5:30 in the morning. I’ll wake up and just roll over. 6:30 I’ll wake up and go back to sleep. 7:30 I’ll wake up and roll over and close my eyes. 8:00 (I really need to start getting ready to leave) and I’ll still close my eyes and roll over, ending up in me being late to work or rushing and getting there with 1 minute to spare. I’ve tried to reflect and meditate and I can’t find a solution. I know the disciplined side of me is saying “just get up” and Jocko would say “just get out of bed” and I’m sure a lot of comments will just say “lol dude just get out of bed” but that answer is harder to practice. I’m at a point in my life (24) where I can really set myself up great for the future. I can work hard at this new job, and work hard going to the gym and dieting and in 5 years be in a great spot. I feel like I’m throwing my opportunities away and setting myself up for a mediocre life at 30, to wake up and realize I lazily squandered important years of my life.
A year ago I hit 125 lbs down (300-185) over the course of 2 years and eventually stabilized at 190-200 range for a year. Since September when I’ve been struggling to wake up and work out, I’ve put on 30lbsand am at 220. My diet is non existent. I did OMAD for a while and it worked but it’s just turned into an excuse to eat shitty food. I’m embarrassed by the way I look again. I’m starting to not fit in all the new clothes I bought. I know deep down I have that desire and will to win and tackle goals and I’ve proven it to myself with the weight loss of 125 lbs and also moving from team member to manager at my old job, but it seems to have completely left me. A year ago I had the will, motivation, and desire to crush my goals, and the work ethic to back it up. Now I’m 1 year older and significantly less responsible, have the work ethic I had when I got my first ever job and didn’t understand what it meant to set goals and work hard.
I feel that all of this stems from me just not having the will to get out of bed. Getting out of bed at 5:30, going to the gym, reading something, and having some free time before work would make me more productive and effective. Currently I’m just dejected and for any reason cannot get out of bed. Whether it’s work or meeting family or friends, I’ll struggle to get out of bed and be either exactly on time or more often than not late.
Have any of you gone through this? Just an inability to actually get out of bed even though you wake up on time? The only time I have to workout is in the morning and I cannot get out of bed to actually do it. How did you handle it? What did you do? Thank you
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