22/f/5’7/255lbs
I am thing to take this as motivation to keep going, to not give up, to “prove them wrong.”
but, i’m having a hard time today. i was talking to my fiancé’s sister about how i was proud of myself for losing 30lbs, and how i’m gonna keep going until i reach my goal. i don’t know if it was jealousy (id say she’s bigger than me, quite a bit so, not that i’m shaming her, of course, just maybe that’s why she said this) or what, but she told me “yeah, you’re big, it’s fine, you have a mom bod.”
i don’t know why it hurt so much. she said it right in front of my fiancé who didn’t say anything, but i guess i also didn’t say anything. when i got pregnant, i lost a lot of weight. i was in the healthy weight loss range, but i could barely eat, vomiting constantly, genuinely unhealthy. i got put on bed rest, and then after i had my kiddo, PPD hit and within 1 year i gained 110-120lbs. this was two years ago that i had my kid.
i have been working to lose the weight, but i don’t know why this hurt me so much, and i don’t know why it’s stuck with me. she has her own problems, at least i’m trying to fix mine. i just feel like shit and i want to give up. i’m trying to stop emotionally eating, start working out, but right now it feels impossible. my fiancé can eat whatever he wants and stays skinny. he always buys my favorite junk foods and i don’t know how to make him stop. he thinks he’s being nice but it fucks me up so bad.
any advice on how i can change this way of thinking, or how i can start losing weight again?
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