Background info: My desire to lose weight began at the end of 2017, when I was 14, dangerously insecure and unhappy, and weighed almost 90 kilos. However my journey to change only properly started at the beginning of 2020. Before then I’d alternate between periods of eating well but not moving at all, and exercising but eating horribly. I finally found a balance and discovered my new love for the gym and gaining muscle. In October 2019 I weighed 88 kilos and I am now down to 61 (with some of that being muscle too!). My goal changed a while ago from weight loss to muscle gain. I have small but visible muscles, and my confidence has also grown along the way.
Anyway back to the point of this post: I went to gym this morning. Then straight after, my sister (14) and I had to pick up my dog from her puppy salon appointment. It was raining very heavily and freezing. The salon is about a 45 minute walk. My sister suggested we run and I was hesitant. I walked through the icy rain thinking back to when I was around 15 and struggled to run a lap without crying, huffing and puffing and hating myself, looking like an idiot. But it was too damn cold for me to resist.
We stared running with the compromise of only running on quiet streets, because I was worried I was gonna look like the big idiot i was in 2017-18. But shortly after I wanted to run on the main roads. Why? Because you know those professional looking runners on the side of the road who make it look easy? That’s who I felt like. My stride, the lightness I felt on my feet, and the feel of the wind in my face made me feel so.. athletic? If I looked like an idiot, it was only because of how damn smiley I was the whole way.
When I used to run, my shins hurt for days afterwards, most likely because of how heavy I was. But we got home about 10 minutes ago and I feel so relaxed and so freakin good. My sister complimented me multiple times about how well I run too! In the span of about 2 hours my attitude towards running has changed completely. I went from fearing running because of my experience with it in the past, to wanting to go running again just for the mood boost it gave me! Thanks for reading, and I hope those of you still working to find happiness with your health and body see this as motivation to KEEP WORKING HARD, because this is just another thing that proved to me how far I have come.
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