I'll try to keep this short: I recently developed a rare skin condition that had my doctor perplexed. He referred me to one of the best dermatologists in the region. One look at my skin and he simply said that it was a psychosomatic root, stemming from internal turmoil and likely poor self-image/hatred. That one hour "consultation" was probably the greatest therapy session I'll ever experience outside of an actual therapist session. The topic of my weight and my current weight loss journey came up, and for the first time I admitted to another human being that I turned off the lights in a room with big mirrors and despised seeing a picture of myself. Wise as ever, he told me I needed to learn to love myself at my "worst", and once I was able to do this, everything else would fall into place.
I'm not opposed to seeking professional therapy to help with this. In fact, I'm 100% for it seeing as my skin cleared right up after the pep talk with the dermatologist. The issue is that I'm currently a college student and I don't really have a way to pay for it (especially after the costs for the dermatologist) and my insurance is laughably bad.
TL;DR - I don't like myself too much right now, but I want to be able to love myself at my heaviest so that weight loss doesn't become a cover up for internal issues
So I'm reaching out for wisdom/advice for those that have been at this for a while and have been able to love themselves at their worst
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