Hey y'all... long time lurker, first time poster.
I have started my weight loss journey a couple of months ago (26.06.18) and lost 5kg / 11lbs already which is really not much but before that I didn't think that it'd work so I was determined to keep going. But now I'm at a loss.
It all started when I weighed 125kg/275lbs. I started having severe chest pain and had to be rushed to the hospital because I couldn't even stand up for a second because it was basically directly beside my heart. So I joined the gym, did some other stuff. The gym didn't help much but I changed my diet and I fell to a whopping 95kg/209lbs. But then I started to slack again and here I am at 110. I then joined the Gym again (I left it because I couldn't motivate myself to it, Depression and all) and it was pretty well. Was hitting it 3 times a week, did about one hour of training with weights and biking for another hour where I burned around 400/500 calories per biking session. It was going great. I tracked my stuff in my MFP-Account, went to treat my depression and everything. I constantly lost weight, even after hanging out with friends and eating maaaybe a bit too much on an occassion but made sure to burn it in sports.
But then, well. As I said, I joined the gym again, that was at the time of graduation from German college in April. I had a couple of months downtown before I would begin to study in a town 8 hours away from my hometown. For americans that might not seem much or anything but that is basically from the lower bottom of Germany to the mid upper end. I'm alone here so I have to take care of everything and I barely know how to adult. It really stresses me out because also the shared flat I live in is quite dirty so I had to clean everything and am still sorting things out with flat mates. It really throws me off and stresses me so much. I managed to kind of beat my depression but there's still a bit left and this whole thing is throwing me so much off that I resorted to sweets. Like, I haven't had sweets in SO EFFING LONG because I wasn't the one that did all the shopping alone - but now I am. And hre I am, buying sweets. It's not like I'm breaking my calory limit with like 500-1000 calories but I'm always afraid to like break it with 100 or 200 calories and I think I'm doing it somehow? (1500 is my limit according to MFP). I'm also eating lunch in the university where it's very cheap (2,60€ for a whole meal) where I also get banana and pudding and stuff and I don't know how to count that into my calories. Like there's no indication of calories on the website or whatsoever. I just add it as 400/500calories and I'm always afraid that I'm underestimating it so I'm eating too much and become fat again and everything.
There's also ONE Gym here in this town. But the problem is that it has bad contract-stuff where I have to stay at least 1 year - and I was planning to change the university course to another city (around 1 away). The gym also doesn't allow to use the card at other gyms of the same franchise (wtf? That's... greedy) so no Gym for me. No emergency-burning of calories. No dopamine rush from doing weight training. Just me, sad thoughts and too many sweets. I don't know how to handle my life anymore. I don't know how I should or could continue my weight loss journey. I'm really, at a loss. I honestly do't even know why I'm writing this or I guess I do now. I want to say "help". so... Help me please. I don#t know what to do.
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