For reference I’m 26, male, 5’9, and currently ~175lbs.
I first started dating my ex in late 2017. At the time I weighed about 230lbs...at my heaviest I weighed 235. In the time since then I started taking my health seriously, dieting and going to the gym. She was supportive the whole time, things were going well with us, we had some serious conversations about the future (she told me she wanted to have children together which thoroughly spooked me to be honest).
A few months ago, things seemed to go downhill between us. She stopped initiating or being responsive when I did. I tried talking to her, and asking her about it, to no avail — she insisted that everything was fine.
About a month and a half ago, after a night out and quite a few drinks for both of us, I tried initiating and she responded with “I don’t want to. You’re too skinny.” The look of disgust on her face was unmistakable.
She didn’t remember the next day, but things kept deteriorating and we called it quits a week ago.
The urge to eat and stop working out is insane. I’ve been able to resist it so far by sheer determination, but part of me keeps thinking I should just give in and things will be better between me and her — minus this weight thing, we had something very special. Intellectually I know I’m still overweight, but damn...it’s hard.
TL;DR: I’m still fat but she was turned off because I was “too skinny” and it’s fucking with my head.
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