I am surrounded by friends and family who are very body positive, self loving people. I would say that out of all of them, I am the heaviest with some extra cushioning all over (“more to love” I’ve been told).
I am a healthy weight right now but I reached my highest about a month ago. I have been on a steady decline for the last several weeks but this week I totally fell off the wagon (and hitched a ride on the wagon heading to the local bakery and ice cream parlor) and have had difficulty with nighttime binges almost daily. My goal weight would have me looking thin and fit... probably around 125 or so.
Although the image of losing this weight and achieving my goal gets me super excited, I also can’t help but fear some of what other people will think. (I knoww, I knowwwww, “bleep the haters!!” but hear me out!!)
Since everyone is so body positive in my life, I know I will get feedback like, wow! You lost weight.... is everything okay?? Or, you were beautiful at your previous size, why did you lose weight?! What’s wrong? Do you have an eating disorder??
I lost weight once in my life previously (gained it back due to stress eating during a traumatic loss in the fam) and I received many of these exact questions. It stunk. I don’t like this type of attention so I always end up blushing badly and trying to play it down and quickly change the topic.
I want my weight loss for me. So that I can feel confident again and fit into all of my old clothes!!
Does this happen to anyone else? Feeling self-conscious about people’s remarks and questions..? And if so, how do you handle it?
Also, sometimes I wonder if this fear of what others might think actually contributes to my self sabotaging behaviors like the binges this week. Just when I’m getting into a great routine, I get in my own way! Anyone with me on this?
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