Monday, June 17, 2019

Wondering how I got to this point (28f)

I'm a bit of a lurker and I love this sub, this is my first post here. I'm on mobile so sorry for formatting. I'll try to keep it short. TL;DR at the end

So a few weeks ago I stepped on a scale after a few months of not weighing myself....and the number shocked me. 107 kg and I'm only 160 cm tall. I sat in the bathroom and cried for like 10 minutes. In those few weeks I managed to get the weight down to 100.3 kg - a lot of that weight was apparently water weight because it was just before my period.

I've never been really skinny but I was never this huge. I feel ashamed and I hate myself for doing this to my body. I know a huge part of my problem is stress eating and eating to cope with negativ energy from others and I'm really struggling keeping emotional eating in check.

I really want to lose weight and for the life of me I can't figure out what is it in my head that's holding me back... I'm terrified of having lose skin, which is one of my biggest fear will happen if/when I lose weight and I know that's a huge factor but surely this cannot be the only thing holding me back... I start a weight loss almost every week and I can't ever make it past Wednesday. I hate myself for being so weak... and I hate myself for how I look. My boyfriend says he likes me like this and still finds me sexy but I'm constantly afraid at one point he will leave me because I look a whale stranded on a beach...

TL;DR I somehow pushed my weight up to 100 kg, don't know what's holding me back when trying to lose weight, afraid my boyfriend will leave me

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