Hi Everyone,
I created a new reddit account just for focusing on my health and weight loss goals. This community seems really supportive and I think having a place where I can feel somewhat accountable may help me make the difference.
A few days ago, I started at the heaviest I have ever been. I am a F25, 5'5" and came in at 224lbs. I hate what I have become.
In July, I got married (at 215lbs) and I just got my wedding photos. I cried for hours because I looked so massive next to my husband. We went on a honeymoon right after to Germany, eating lots of potatoes/meat and consuming lots of beer. I gain almost ten pounds in a few weeks. Around the end of my honeymoon, my dad died in an unexpected and horrible way. I wasn't able to say goodbye. I ate more and drank more to cope with my loss. It's only been a few weeks, but I feel like I need to focus on my physical health and it may help with my mental health.
At 19, I was 145 lbs and ate whatever I wanted, but I was also working as a waitress and didn't have a lot of money. When I became an electrician, I went to camp and all the food was FREE. So I ate whatever I could get my hands on (likely a by product of being poor and suddenly having an abundance of food). I gained 30 lbs I have never been able to lose. Since then, I've been on/off dieting and incorporating regular exercise. In 2016, I was down to 192 lbs and I was pretty muscular, going to the gym 4 or 5 times a week doing 1hr of weights and half hour of cardio. I actually liked how I looked despite my weight because I was "fit". I started working full time and going to school at the same time and fell out of my routine. The lowest weight I've been able to achieve since I was 19 is 187 lbs on keto but I like beer, so that has been my main downfall.
I told myself I would lose weight for my wedding, but I was so overwhelmed with school and work that I accepted I would just be fat. But now I have to live with that choice and look back on hundreds of double chin reminders.
My goal is first to get back under 200 (Onederland!) and eventually reach 150 lbs. before I start weight training again. I went to see a doctor and I am on a fairly restrictive diet for the next six weeks followed by a 3 week maintenance period consuming a normal amount of calories while still avoiding empty carbs and sugars. The hardest part has been denying my cravings to just stop for a fancy coffee or grab a BLT while I'm out. Oh, and not having a beer after work. I love beer but it's my worst enemy. I have lost 5-6 lbs likely in just water weight but at least it's motivating me to continue. I can't keep living like this.
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