I’m fortunate I’ve been skinny most of my life. In my teens and early to mid 20s, I was 125-140 and a size 2-4. I also have another blessing: I’m tall for a woman. 5’8 to be exact.
I weighed myself today and drum roll... 171. It’s the most I’ve ever weighed and also officially puts me in the “overweight” BMI category. I wear sweats most days and feel bloated almost every day. I eat too many carbs (my boyfriend loves pasta), and need to eat more vegetables and less overall. I’ve always loved food, and it’s definitely a joy for me. My metabolism has definitely changed/plummeted from 25 to 27 going on 28. Also, I started a new job in March that’s stressful and now work 50+ hours week, so I’ve made not so great food choices (late eating, overeating) as a result of that.
Ugh, this sucks. I’m so unhappy with my body. From age 12-20, I had disordered eating as a result of modeling, so I unfortunately have still associated counting calories with unhealthy dieting methods (ex: eating 800 calories a day) from those years and need to relearn how to do it. I’ve tried to lose weight last year, but have given up cause it’s made me sad/frustrated/unhappy and this overall year has been difficult to say the least.
Anyway, as of tomorrow, I need to start counting calories again. Will start with 1500 since I’m fairly sedentary (30 min walk per day is my exercise). I also need to relearn counting calories and being kinder to myself as this is a process and won’t happen overnight.
Anywho, thanks for reading/listening and look forward to being more active in this community and sharing my weight loss journey with you all.
- CW: 171
- HW: 171
- GW1: 155
- GW2: 145
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