In case it's not working - 24M, 6'4", SW: 285lbs, CW: 195lbs, GW: 180lbs
I started losing weight in January of 2018. I was able to move so fast with my Fitbit and MyFitnessPal, and this sub for support. By that summer I had really noticable results. Change happens slow, but it happened to me as long as I kept going.
Then, I began sharing more on social media and to my friends and coworkers about my weight loss. I became addicted to the positive attention. I started getting involved in hookups here and there for the first time, which really began to mess with my head and give me negative feelings about being gay, which before then I was cool with. That mixed with tension in my life became very heavy. Being constantly connected to everyone through social media and the politics of it all gave me a lot of anxiety. I started feeling like I owed everybody fitness updates, because people had been coming to me for advice since posting.
I ended up taking about 6 months off from actively losing weight, and I started eating like shit again. What people thought about me and what I was doing became very important. I'm introverted (INTJ), and the feeling of having people looking in at me like I was a fish in a tank was really anxiety inducing. I gained about 13lbs in this time from my terrible eating, which I also contribute to stress from starting my first full time job.
A week and a half ago, I meditated on a strategy. I can't see a therapist right now, so sometimes I get stoned and stare at my social work degree, trying to come up with something. It was cliche, but it could work.
Telling no one, I deactivated my Facebook and deleted the app. I deleted Snapchat and Instagram. Took off my Fitbit (everyone and their mom at work are friends, and I don't like the pressure of knowing they see my activity - and no, I can't just delete everybody).
I've been social media free for three weeks. I've been doing CICO and exercising with some water fasting, and I'm at my lowest weight ever. And the only person who knows about it is my dog. It's my journey that I can have by myself. I've also started playing games on my phone when I would be on social media, and there are some good ones out there!
When you share your journey, people will either ridicule you for not following through, or latch onto you like leeches if you're successful to try to solve their own puzzle. Oh, and some people will just never like you no matter how hot you feel. If you keep it to yourself, it's all on your terms. And part of weight loss for me is taking some control over my damn experience of life.
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