Hi, everyone!
First and foremost, this is my first post on this sub, so if the formatting is wrong or if something is not allowed, my apologies. Let me know and I'll fix it ASAP.
With that said, greetings everyone. My name is Briar. Weird name? Yes. Trouble pronouncing it? Think Breyer's Ice Cream (I know, bad example in this sub) - same pronunciation, different spelling. Though I do have a main Reddit account, I wanted to create this account to serve as my personal Reddit profile where I'll (hopefully) track my progress, show some progress pics, and be a part of the community.
This next part will be a backstory leading up to where I'm at now in my life. If you would rather read a TLDR, I'll be adding one at the end.
As you can probably see by the title of this post, I need help. I'm struggling to start a diet, and then when I do, I struggle to stay on track. It's been like this for the majority of my life with 2017 being the only exception. In December of 2016, I was a 350lb freshman in college. I didn't have much energy. I also hated myself. My sister began her weight loss journey the month prior and was already showing progress. My natural brotherly instinct was to compete with her. And so I did.
From December 2016 to August 2017, I lost 130lb (going from 350 -> 220). The results were honestly amazing. I was working out six days a week, twice a day. I was only eating 1600-1800 calories/day, though. So, despite the progress, I have also been made aware that this wasn't the healthiest of ways to lose weight... which would explain why I've gained almost all of it back since then.
As of the last time I weighed a few days ago, I was 337. I've been sitting around 337 for a few months now. I know this because every time I go to start a diet, I weigh in and constantly wonder, "Why am I still 337? I eat like crap every day and don't even work out..." Regardless, I lost 130lb in one year, and then gained 117lb in four.
When I say "which would explain why I've gained almost all of it back since then," I'm inferring the possibility that I was starving myself back in 2017. Once the temptations of junk food started to break through, the walls I had built up quickly fell. All of the fast food I had been missing out on looked delicious. I kept telling myself, "Oh, well. Just ONE Big Mac wouldn't hurt" and other similar lines.
Along with the weight gain, I've lost a lot of confidence. At 220, I was able to go around and feel great about myself because of what I've done. Now, I feel embarrassed. These people saw me go from fat to average back to fat. It's a horrible feeling, which then makes me eat out of stress and emotions, and then the vicious cycle continues.
It's come to the point now where my health anxiety is at a scary point. Any time I feel the slightest pain in my chest or left arm, my immediate thought it, "This is it. I'm having a heart attack." That leads to a panic attack. Which then - you guessed it - leads to eating. That's just mentally. Physically, I had to get my gallbladder removed back in June because it couldn't take the way I was eating anymore. Along with that, I also found out I had a fatty liver. And even now as I type this post, I'm worried about my health.
I'm a 23-year-old college student. I'm one semester away from graduating. I want to do so much in the future. Have a great job, find a girlfriend, eventually make her my wife, have a family, etc. But if I don't lose this weight, I'm scared that my life will be cut short and I'll never be able to achieve these goals.
That's where you guys and gals come in.
If you've made it this far, thank you for reading my post! Seriously, I appreciate it. But I need some advice on how to properly get started on a diet. What mindset to have. What steps I need to take. And then once I'm on the diet, what do I need to do stay motivated to stay on track? How do I keep the mindset of, " I gotta lose this weight"?
Any tips/tricks/advice is appreciated!
- Briar
TLDR: Lost 130lb in one year, only to gain 117lb back in four. Been up and down since then. Mind and body are feeling the stresses. I need tips on what I need to do to start a diet and stay on it so that I can go about living out my dreams.
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