I think I'll feel more at peace if I write this. I've been overweight since I can remember, but I lost about 90 lbs (293 > 197 lbs) a few years ago. Over the last year I've gained 20-25 lbs back which was kickstarted when I lost a loved one. I'm now 218 and because I'm almost 6ft tall my clothes still fit and I don't think it's looks too dramatic, but it FEELS dramatic to me. Because I've been overweight my whole life, losing all that weight made me feel amazing, I've never felt like that before. I was 10 lbs from my ultimate goal weight. Now, I'm constantly thinking about how I feel in my clothes, how it feels to complete basic life tasks. I don't EVER want to be in a photograph. I've been trying to get back on track for almost the last three weeks while I'm overseas for 2 months and away from my boyfriend, who I love more than anything but can eat anything without gaining a pound. It's been hard to stay on track while on a trip, but it many ways it feels like the perfect time. I'm trying really hard to have a positive mindset through this whole process and to remember that I've come farther than I have to go, but it's difficult.
I know I'm going to get there, but I don't want to have negative self talk on my entire journey back. I guess this is a journey to self love, and health. I'm working through it, and It's getting better. I think I just wanted to talk about it without friends looking at you with concern. I'd never do anything dangerous to lose weight, but many people do so I get it - it's just annoying.
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