Hi guys, I’m not sure if this is the place to ask, but I’m wondering if anyone has had the same experience as me and can give advise or kind words.
Most of my life, I really wanted to lose weight to look like the girls in the magazines— all that crap. Over the years I have gone on and off with the healthy dieting and regular exercise and all that. Sometimes I’m successful in losing the weight, sometimes not. I don’t go crazy with it, but every time when the weight comes back, I think okay come on you have to get back to the gym. This usually persists for several months before I actually get back to the gym to repeat this weight loss - gain - loss cycle.
So, where is this going? Well, recently I was in my “come on you’ve got to get back to the gym” phase of things when a very tragic event occurred in my life. I was so effected that I became seriously depressed which resulted in major stomach problems, loss of appetite and dramatic weight loss. I am now happy to say I am working (with the help a therapist and doctors) to recover from this tragic event and it’s resulting effects on my body. But now, when I look in the mirror, I feel so conflicted. Even though I have the body I always wanted, I know that this happened through sickness, trauma and suffering. I didn’t work hard for this or put in the hours to have a final result to be proud of. People keep telling me how great I look but every time I get these compliments I just want to cry.
I’m not trying to sound like the bitch on here saying boo hoo I lost weight when so many are struggling to do so— and believe me it’s always been a struggle for me too— but this just really has me feeling bad. I know the weight will probably come back in a few months but for now how am I supposed to feel? I got my dream body totally by accident and in the worst way.
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