this post is gonna be a lot of whining and self pity so pls don’t feel bad if you don’t want to read me being annoying
f 19 5’5.25 (yes it counts >:[ ) 271 lbs
i lost 100 lbs a couple years ago and got down to the bottom end of a healthy bmi, was gonna get to like 115 and tone. then pandemic hit and i gained it all back along with 50 more lbs. i know it’s mainly my fault and the pandemic isn’t an excuse. with online school and staying at home i overate every day and the pounds just packed on.
at the beginning of last month i weighed 287 lbs and had enough, i began to calorie count like i always used to and i’ve lost 16 lbs, with majority of it if not all being water weight.
obviously i know bc i’m a higher weight that weight loss isn’t going to make me look different for a while, the paper towel effect etc etc etc but i look even WORSE. i swear my double chin has gotten bigger and my stomach looks bigger too. i feel so frustrated,
and i tried to exercise today, i used to be able to exercise for over an hour straight and barely break a sweat. i lasted 9 minutes of light cardio and i had to stop bc i was going to pass out. 9!!! i’ve completely ruined my stamina when i used to be in such good shape.
and my friends and family tell me oh it’s fine, you’ve lost weight before you’ll lose it again. but i won’t be even near where i was for another 2 years. i feel pathetic and ashamed, everyone was so proud of me for losing weight and now i look even worse. my friends say they aren’t embarrassed to be seen with me but i know they are.
i’ve stopped eating fast food because i was addicted to it and would eat it at least once a day. i’m eating healthy and in a deficit. i KNOW the weight loss is going to continue but it’s hard being so big and i’m going to continue looking like this for at least another 100 lbs so at least another year. it’s hard not to feel hopeless. i genuinely think my weight is making me extremely depressed.
i just needed to rant. i have no one to rant to bc again whenever i mention it they just say i’ll lose weight like i did before 😞 i’m just rlly depressed and need this off my chest.
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