The cards were stacked against me, but I was making excuses.

I have 2 medical conditions and 3 medications that are known to cause weight gain and slow metabolism. Every since the onset of my health issues, I've gained 28lbs up and down. I've been stuck in a cycle of physical pain, constant snacking to alleviate it, weight gain causing more pain, and so on.

At 158 lbs (5'5") I put my foot down and decided that I'll endure the pain and drug side effects and start limiting my calorie intake to 1200 a day. While this pales in comparison to what some of you have to endure, it was a big hurdle for me. I'm close to 4lbs down now, but I've got a long way to go before it pays off.

For a long time I've been telling myself that weight loss is futile because of my health issues, but really I just didn't want to add to the plate of symptoms I already had. Every time a doctor recommended weight loss, I felt offended as if they were suggesting that weight gain was a cause of my health issues and not a symptom, and as if they were accusing me of lazy eating habits. I've had issues trusting doctors due to an almost misdiagnosed illness and imposing symptoms on me that I don't have while neglecting the ones that I do.

Now that I've cleared my head of these delusions and have seen mild improvement of my symptoms from weight loss, I realized that other doctors weren't concerned if my weight gain was a cause or symptom. They weren't trying to judge me and accuse me of fattening myself and deteriorating my health. They were simply saying, if you do 'X' you get 'Y'. "If you lost weight, you will see improvement in my symptoms". Not "If you weren't so busy being a fat fuck, maybe you wouldn't have given yourself all these problems".

Before, I was offended by recommendations of weight loss as if doctors were implying that I wasn't trying enough and that I brought this upon myself, and not the multitude of preexisting conditions I had. Now, I've learned to push that aside and accept that there is no 'fault' for being overweight. No one chooses to gain weight, and it doesn't matter if it's a symptom or a cause. How other's perceive you for your weight gain has nothing to do with how healthy it is for you to lose it.

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