I've tried to lose weight before. I've been overweight my entire life, so my parents have pushed me into diets multiple times, and I'd make a bit of progress. I'd follow the instructions I was given, but then the weight would stop coming off, and then it would come back on again, and it would make me feel horrible. I followed all of the instructions, I didn't change anything, so why was I gaining weight again?
I was diagnosed with PCOS at 13. Every diet I tried from then on had PCOS in mind. I tried Weight Watchers when my mom tried it, but I tried to consume as little food, and use as few points, as possible. I felt terrible, and I felt exhausted, but I'd lose the weight, right? A month of starving myself, and I didn't lose any weight.
I tried losing weight again by setting my caloric goal at a deficit and eating according to that. And I managed to lose a little bit of weight. But then I'd eat a "bad" food, or the "wrong" thing, and I felt disgusting afterward. I'd considered making myself throw up multiple times, but thankfully never actually did it. I was still in middle school at this point.
I just turned 22. I've been counting calories since June, and I managed to drop 9 pounds in that time! But I don't know if it was because I started a new medication or what, but the weight loss started to slow down to nothing, and eventually, slowly but surely, I started to gain weight again. I've been up since 10am and it's 2pm now, and I just don't want to eat.
I know that I have to. I planned to work out today, and I know that I need something in my system in order to make it through, but the idea of eating anything after I've gained weight back makes me feel disgusting. I can feel my mentality slipping backwards, and I don't want that to happen. I don't know what to do.
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