I’m not sure if this title makes sense but I’m trying to describe the way I feel right now. I weigh more than I ever have in my life and after stepping on the scale today I’m honestly disgusted. I know I shouldn’t be because I need to love my body and myself no matter what and give myself grace, but I just feel so totally repulsive. It makes me want to go nuclear somehow and get the weight gone immediately. My problem is I feel hopeless with the amount of time it would take me to lose the amount of weight I want to lose. Realistically, I need to lose like 60 pounds to even be at the top range of “healthy”. I’ve never lost more than like 10 pounds and when I did that, it was because I was depressed and not eating. I’m sitting here considering how I can force myself into an eating disorder or somehow get prescribed weight loss pills when really, I do not want to do either of those things. I just feel desperate to not be fat anymore. Does anyone relate to this?? I almost feel like I can’t start because I’m already so far gone it’s like I have to climb a whole mountain and I feel so overwhelmed. How can I stop freaking out and just… start? I need some words of wisdom if you’ve got ‘em!
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