Let me start this by saying that I understand any question beginning with some form of the phrase "Has anyone else..." is overwhelmingly followed by the response "yes," yet I don't think I've really seen someone talk about this in my time lurking this subreddit. If any of you have dealt with this, I'd love to hear from you. Also, now that I've finished writing the post, I'm having a hard time clicking submit because I'm very nervous. Go easy on me, please.
Over the past 13 months I have lost 150 pounds (68kg), going from a 50+ BMI to a 29.7 as of yesterday. I am 25M 5'11 (180cm) with a starting weight of at least 363(165kg)(was probably solidly 370+) and a current weight of 213(97kg). I lost it through a strict caloric deficit, because I don't exercise. In fact, you could probably describe my activity level as borderline comatose. Though my calories have been strict (Somewhere between 1300-1700 calories, with an average being 1500), I have changed my diet multiple times, starting with keto for the first 7 months and recently a lot of vegetables and carbohydrates.
When I started to lose weight I expected to eventually feel like a new person, and now that I am 150 pounds down, looking back...I just don't. Yes, walking up stairs is slightly easier and I can buy clothing that fits a bit better, but other than that I've had almost no positive takeaways. Most of them have been neutral observations like these two protruding veins on my forearms that I'm a little too aware of at the moment. Unfortunately, a lot are negative.
I don't feel temperature well anymore. Before when I was obese, I could appreciate the coolness of air conditioning on a hot summer day, or a warm breeze coming through an open window. I could appreciate the biting sensation of cold, especially up in the mountains where your lungs would hurt a little from too deep of a breath. Now, I am overwhelmingly cold. The winter is no longer pleasantly uncomfortable, it feels like a fight for survival when I'm extremely bundled up and losing feel in my extremities. Cold is painful and harsh. I used a heated blanket for most of the winter and spring. My fingernails and toenails were routinely blue. Even now in the summer, it's hard for me to be in a building that is cooled below 78F (25C). However, once the cold leaves, then it's hot. There's no in-between. I'm not left with enjoying nice weather, I'm either shivering or I'm sweating. Worth noting I sweat a lot more now than I ever did before. All of this is pretty disappointing.
My body is jagged and rough. This was more or less expected, but I'm still going to complain about it. I can't sleep with my knees together anymore because they're too bony, and sitting down can be very painful now that I've discovered what "sit bones" are. I am very aware of my shins now, they feel almost too close to the surface of the skin if that makes sense, and can be painful if I touch them carelessly. I feel like I'm not adjusting well to my new body, it's new and not in a good way. I feel very uncomfortable.
I have absolutely no energy or motivation. So many times I hear about people gaining so much more energy and confidence when losing weight, even if they're sedentary like I am. I know that this can probably be attributed to zero exercise, but I still expected...something. Anything. Honestly I feel like my energy levels have gone down slightly, if anything.
A lot of other things I could list, but I just wanted to give a few so that I could share my negative experiences. In anticipation of any comments, I could certainly be focusing too much on the negatives, but then again this isn't really something I've thought about until these last couple of weeks. There are certainly plenty of explanations for feeling poorly like lack of exercise or perhaps declining mental health, but the frustrating part about all of this, and why I'm making this post and complaining, is the fact that I feel worse than I did 13 months ago and presumably all that's changed should've been a net positive. I know that given my lifestyle feeling poorly might be expected, but I feel like I shouldn't be worse off than before. I'd be okay with feeling bad if it was an overall improvement.
I expected not to fit into my clothes anymore, but I didn't expect not to fit into my life.
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