Around two years ago i managed to lose 20 kg of weight by cutting most sugar(and junk food in general) out of my diet completely for a long time. I have been struggling with my weight for over 10 years now, and certainly my entire adult life(i am 24 now).
Around late 2019 i started to reintroduce junk food to my diet, because i was trying to expose myself to different things as i was dealing with OCD related fear of certain foods. I started to gain weight but it wasn't too bad until 2020 began.
After the lock downs my life was completely turned upside down and i wasn't able to do fuck all for the most of the year, and i still can't. I spend most of my time home, and i eat as much as i used to before my weight loss. Obscene amount of food.
I have now not only ballooned back to my old weight, which was around 130 kg, i have more weight and i am at 137 kg now, 139 kg on the evening. I am only 13 kg away from the 150 kg, the fattest i have ever been.
So im definitely losing my faith with my weight loss. I have pissed away all my progress, and what makes it even worse that it's been extremely difficult to lose weight at all since i can't stop overeating/emotional eating.
I am very close to just giving up with myself and am starting to think that i shouldn't even bother anymore, i should just die instead. It really looks like the only occasion where i can burn off the excess fat is when my corpse is cremated.
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