I am u/ItsLilly22 I’m 17 years old and I am a food addict. I feel weird saying this, I doubt there is such thing as a rehab center for people who consume food obsessively and unhealthily. There are eating disorder clinics, but they mostly (or even exclusively I would say) treat anorexia patients.
But the truth is food and carbohydrates can be as addictive as most mind-altering substances and this comes from someone who is also hooked on xanax. Just like drug addiction food addiction preys on the most vulnerable mentally. In my case I have bad OCD and pathological low self-esteem and depression and eating is my escape. Every day the only thing I look forward to is food, I wake up I got breakfast on my mind, I can chug down a dinner plate in 2 minutes, I eat when I’m sad I eat when I’m lonely. I eat because nothing else is enjoyable anymore.
The other day I cried watching Amberlynn Reid, the 600 lbs “weight loss” youtuber who’s failed more diets than she can count. Even though I’m exactly 1/4th of her weight I know exactly what she feels. For a normal person, like me before I started dealing with BED, it would be so simple to just stop. We would obviously be better off if we lost weight and it would be better in the long term in every way, still we can’t not eat those 400kcal of ice cream at night or that second portion of buttered noodles.
I guess I managed to fuck up more than anyone bc I’m both a food addict and a benzos addict, but I know there are loads of people who also deal with some sort of food addiction and some of them are on this sub reading this rn. If that’s the case for you, I just wanted to say that I understand you, you’re not alone.
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