Sunday, February 21, 2021

Need to find my motivation

I am a female 5'3. Back in my mid 30s I finally had enough with my weight and joined a gym, got a personal trainer and started losing weight. I started weighing my food and and counting calories in addition to cardio and resistance training. Nothing stopped me then after about 4 years, i discovered Powerlifting and dropped my personal trainer and became a competitive powerlifter. I went from 256 lbs to the low to mid to high 140s to compete in the 148 weight class and was able to do that for 8 meets.

I think i became too obsessive trying to keep in the 148s then had an issue with my coach and we parted ways. Since then, i have slowly lost my drive to maintain that weight loss and weight started slowly packing on and I basically stopped doing cardio.

Now almost in my mid 40s, i am back up to @188-190 and hate it! But no matter how much i hate it, i try to go back to counting calories because i know that worked before but it doesn't last more than a couple days. I make all these promises, statements, plans, to myself and others and don't follow through. What is wrong with me? Squatting with a belt at this weight sucks! The gym used to be my Haven and therapy now i make every excuse to talk myself out of going. Of course the Pandemic hasn't helped either and it sucks working out with a mask. HELP!!!

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