Last month I lost my grandmother to covid and had to make an emergency trip overseas. I was in a depressive episode since her diagnosis last Christmas but thankfully with the help of my therapist and medication I've finally been able to get out of bed and grieve properly little by little.
I got myself a scale yesterday and found out that Ive gained about 25 lbs since last march. I guess it's not an insane amount but in addition to that I've spent most of the past two months in bed 90% of the day and not eating too well with no routine so I'm probably in worse shape than I think.
In a letter my grandma left she said that she grew up not knowing her parents so she was always worried that she was raising mom badly. she said that she's glad that she was blessed with grandkids and hope that they live their best life.
I want to get healthier and lose weight to make her proud but I tend to neglect myself alot which leads to a shame spiral that's a lot of "you can't even go on a walk, you're useless"
I was wondering if I cold get some advice or sources of motivation for you guys?
do you keep a mood board or is there a book that kick started your weight loss journey?
Thanks a bunch. it's been a rough few months but I hope I can change it for the better.
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