I’ve been in this community awhile now and have never posted, just lurked and hated on other people’s success stories bc I was jealous of the transformations they’ve been able to make. A post I saw last night had said something like “do it in secret”, basically don’t tell anyone what you’re doing just let them eventually notice. I already know I need an accountability system but I really liked that idea so that what made me decide to post. I wrote a very long post in my notes that I was going to copy&paste here that just basically talked about everything I’ve been going through, how I know what changes I need to make but just don’t do it, etc.
I’ll spare you that very long and sad ramble and just introduce myself and share the last part of that note. I’m a 23 y/o female and I weigh 315lbs. I am a 5th year college student, still living with my parents, no job, and I ditched my 8am class today bc I had a panic attack brought on by me suddenly being overwhelmed by all of the problems in my life that I had been ignoring. Here’s the last part of my note:
“I want to be a success story. I want to be one of the people from this community who can proudly post in a year or two about how far they’ve come. I know how to get started, I just don’t know how to handle failure and I know I will run into some failures along the way. I’ve been failing so much at everything over the last few years and my way of dealing with it has been ignore it until it’s all you end up thinking about and you have a full on panic attack. I’m tired of hating myself and not doing the things I want to do bc I’m not comfortable in my body. So I’m going to set a small goal for myself that in 6 months (August 2020), I’m going to post here again with 3 things I love about myself and my weight loss progress.”
I’m so over this cycle of committing myself to change and then having it fall through bc of an inconvenience or not getting the results I expected. So along with that goal, I’m promising myself that this is the end of that cycle.
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