I never thought this would be my first post on loseit.
I decided to start losing weight in November 2017. Some of my clothes didn’t fit anymore, my rings were too tight for the fingers I usually put them on and I was constantly worried about looking fat. I had just graduated from college and started looking for career jobs, I was working in a clothes store and my confidence was at an all time low.
I downloaded MyFitnessPal, started counting calories and managed to lose 40 pounds. I started at 177 and now I’m at 137. I want to lose another 19 pounds. I even managed to get a good job. Everything was looking up.
Yesterday, my cat died. She was 15 and a half. She had been with me since I was 8 years old. She was my absolute baby. My boyfriend always joked that she was the only thing I loved more than him. The grief I’m feeling is so intense. I went to work for a few hours today and all I could consume was a glass of water. I have a couple days off now and I’m at a loss of what to do. Today I came home sobbing because she wasn’t there to greet me at the door and I sat out beside where we buried her and cried for twenty minutes.
In terms of weight loss, I feel like I’m losing control. One minute I feel nauseous at the thought of food and the next I feel like I should order a big takeaway to make myself feel better. I just don’t know how to cope with this grief. And I know eating my feelings will only have negative consequences for me. I just need some support through this. I want to continue making progress but I’m struggling to care about anything but the loss.
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