Sunday, September 22, 2019

Don’t know where to go from here but I’m ready to do something.

I’m 22 years old (f) and have always been on the larger side. In high school I weighed about 230 lbs at my heaviest weight but it fluctuated during that time. Since I was 18, though, I have only been gaining weight at an almost rapid pace . The last time I stepped on a scale was about 8 months ago and I weighed 340 lbs. I have definitely gained since then but not too much I think. I don’t look in mirrors at myself anymore, I don’t go shopping anymore. I binge and at this point eat almost nothing that’s good for my body. I suffer from depression and severe anxiety but I do suspect that a lot of it has manifested from my current weight and feelings towards myself. I’m a picky eater and don’t like a lot of food, but I know that for this to work I need to quit the unhealthy habits cold turkey. In moderation will not work for me, because at this point in my life there’s nothing that I do in moderation. I don’t want soda in my fridge, I don’t want snack food in the cabinet or ice cream in the freezer. I live alone so I have complete control over what I have access to. I currently don’t even eat that much food, just super unhealthy food. Definitely one meal a day and a couple of snacks, sometimes two a day with a couple of snacks. Bigger than recommended portions but not outrageous. I also wonder if something is wrong with me medically because of the pace at which I gain weight compared to the amount of food I eat. I haven’t gone to the doctor even for a check up in years because I am terrified of the embarrassment I will feel. I know that diet is the biggest part of weight loss and I want to approach this in a healthy way since I have so much excessive weight it will likely shed pretty easily in the beginning. I am open to any advice from this sub but do specifically have requests for when and how to exercise and what would be best for my goals, and recipes or experiences with meal prepping and grocery shopping on a budget. Thank you all for giving me hope and some motivation to better myself :)

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