I feel I’ve been failing myself now more than ever and I need help.

I hesitated to post because I honestly figured my post wouldn’t get much traction because it’s so “basic”. But I don’t know know what to do to lose weight at this point.

For reference, I am a 25F, I currently weigh 240lbs, I’m 5’4, and I have PCOS and hypothyroidism.

I know the science and how it should work. In early 2018, I weighed about 165, which I was very happy with. When I graduated college and worked 2 jobs for 60+ hours a week, my diet and fitness routine began to fail. I couldn’t stay committed like I was in college. At the end of 2019, I moved to a new city with a salary-based job. I weighed about 185 and decided I needed work on my physical health (and in turn, would help my mental health) now that I had an 8-5. Well, we all know what happened at the beginning of 2020. Throughout the pandemic, I had highs and lows with fitness. Flash forward to present. I ended up gaining nearly 60lbs over the pandemic as well as stretch marks across my stomach. It has been so hard to get back into the routine. Harder that it’s ever been. I’ve bought myself food scales, workout equipment, new workout clothes, fitbit, used tracking apps, the whole 9 yards. I cannot stay consistent and it breaks my heart, because I’m only failing myself. Whether it’s gym work or kitchen work, I always end up having a rest/cheat day that just never ended. You would think looking in the mirror and hating how I look/feel would be motivation enough, but it’s not in my case, for whatever damn reason. And yes, I’ve talked to both my GP and psych, and they just encourage me to “get outside and make good dietary choices.” I’m on antidepressants, BC, and something for the hypothyroidism, but none of that inherently helps with weight loss goals.

I know I’ve focused on losing motivation here, but can y’all think of something that may be causing me to think that way? Am I doing the wrong workouts? Eating the wrong foods? I don’t know why I lose motivation over and over. Like it said, I’m breaking my own heart and I’d love any advice/resources/or experience y’all may be able to share.

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