This is a weird problem to have, I guess. I've been overweight my entire life. I remember my mother telling me I was too fat for cute clothes and 2-piece swimsuits she'd buy my thin sister when I was like, 5? 6? I've been with my partner for over a decade, and one wonderful thing is that they have always appreciated me at whatever size I was, whatever I was going through. They would also support me in any weight loss efforts I endeavored upon.
I wonder if they thought I'd never succeed however, seeing me fail over and over all through my mid-20s to late-30s.
Now, somehow, things have clicked and I'm down over 50lbs in 8 months. I'm definitely not "too skinny" by any record of measurement, and still hoping to lose 15-20 more lbs. My BMI is 26.5 and I wear a US size 10. Yet, I can tell when they look at me, how they never touch me or comment on my appearance anymore that they are disappointed. Yet they half-ass deny it when I ask directly.
I don't really know how to manage this. I never wanted to be with someone who would leave me if I gained more weight. I truly never thought I'd end up with someone who resented that I've lost weight. I'm stronger than ever, I fit in clothes I've never been able to fit into, I have a lot more confidence in my appearance. I don't want to give that up, and I can't imagine them asking me to. I wonder if anyone else has gone through anything similar in their weight lost journey and how they dealt with it.
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