I'm a 27 year old male. My weight has yo-yo'd drastically all my life. I have starved and binged repeatedly since I was 11. I've gone through periods of being fit and attractive and I'm afraid I will never be that again.
I am currently at a high weight, not my highest ever, but I am just so sick of it. I weigh 96kg at 5'10. Last year I got down to 62kg with a strict diet and exercised for hours every day. I finally liked my body. Then I got covid quite badly, I had to go to hospital. I'm not sure why it hit me so bad when I was young and healthy, but anyway I ended up piling all the weight back on due to binge eating.
I don't go outside cos I don't want to be seen. I won't let my friends see me and I don't even bother dating anymore. I'm so tired of being a slave to food. I'm tired of eating all the time. I hate my body. I hate how I'm perceived at this weight.
I want to be fit and normal and not a fat glutton who can't go a couple hours without stuffing my face. I don't even have the will to diet anymore, long covid makes me so tired. It's like all my willpower is just gone. I don't feel pleasure in anything anymore. If I can't lose weight I will just end my life, so this feels like my last hope.
I can't get it on the NHS but I can afford to pay for it privately, some clinics in the UK will perform the surgery on people with a BMI over 30 on an individual basis. Or I could get it done in a foreign country where they don't care so much.
Does surgery sound like a good option for me? I'm not bothered about any risks or complications. I think I would like a gastric bypass or gastric sleeve.
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