Saturday, August 17, 2019

I am tired of failing

I haven't had a hard life, my parents worked really hard and we were not by any means rich, but we had a medium - medium-high income, both of them were very supportive with studies, sports and everything that me and my sister wanted to do.

I have always been told that I am very smart and the problem is that I believe it too much and rely on it, I don't usually give my all because I believe it can be "overpowered" by intelligence.

And about the weight, I was at a healthy weight, probably around 180 +- little bit of muscle at age 18, then I got my first girlfriend and we started going out, at the same time I got my first job, my mom sent me breakfast and lunch and then I went and bought ANOTHER breakfast and lunch at work, went to NH ex's place ate dinner over there and then had dinner at home, and let me not forget about those huge iced coffees I had at my breaks.

I have lost around 20-25 pounds in a couple of months and when people start noticing I stop, like I don't care about it and to be honest I sometimes feel like it is true, besides work and family I don't have much to do, so I just spend my time playing Videogames, watching YouTube and just messing around instead of being actually productive and doing something with my life.

I wanted to rant about it, because I know I'm my biggest enemy, don't have any self confidence right now, don't know what to do with my life and don't know how to do a lot of stuff, but I do know I don't want to die soon. I'll start really getting my shit together, training, eating real stuff and trying to get my life in order, because I really feel everything is a mess right now.

Current weight 102kg (225 lbs) Goal weight 82 kg (180 lbs) Height 1.72cm (5'8")

Expected weight loss rate 1.5-2lbs per week average.

Will keep you posted the progress and let's hope someone also joins this journey.

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